Bad Things

Hey‚ Andrew. Please don't close the door. Just let me talk and I'll leave. I promise. I.. I'm scared. And- and your words have been repeating in my mind without end. I stay in my bed for hours after I wake up. I barely eat. I've been daydreaming in my mind until I can't tell what's real and what isn't... I'm trying to say that I'm broken. I don't want to be this way anymore. So I've come here to make amends‚ or- or to apologize‚ or to get closure‚ I don't know and I really don't care what you call it. I believe that love just looks a little different for everyone. For me it was darker than most. Meaner than most. A little uglier than most... And I loved you a lot. More than I could bare. You. Andrew‚ the developer. With your talent‚ no wonder I put you on a pedestal. And I- I... Looking to the sky can leave you blinded by the sun‚ I guess. And I lost you‚ somewhere along the way. And I replaced you with who I wanted to be. But‚ but now I have suffered and I have learnedǃ I was reborn‚ Andrew‚ cleaned as I walked through the fireǃ I won't hurt you. Not again‚ I promise. I was wrong. We do need each other. We did this‚ not just the game‚ but all of this‚ together‚ right? Every step of the way to become who you are now‚ I was there. You fall down‚ and I'm there. You cry out‚ and I'm there. You look back‚ and I'm there. Each picture of yourself in your mind. Out of focus‚ hidden‚ you'll find me there. We made each other. Seperated‚ we tear ourselves apart. I understand if you don't forgive me. I understand if you hate me... but please‚ please don't forget me Andrew.